S0, today was rather un-eventful. Woke up later than usual, helped the mother with her animals, spent time with my grandma and then made dinner for my mother's boyfriend. Now, my moods are generally the same, but sometimes they like to drastically change. I;m bipolar that way.

My mother can be a bit picky and eccentric when it comes to her animals or her boyfriend. I made them dinner and took care of them, serving them food, drinks and the like. So why does my mother find the need to nag me? I mean, i;m doing all this for her, just because i forgot to do one, ONE little thing she gets all hyphy about it. It's not fair to me, i'm actually doing this because I WANT to and then she spoils my mood. Arghhh....i know i sound whiney but what can I do.
Then she decides to start pestering me about "making friends" while I'm down here. OK, first thing...i cannot be pushed to make friends. And secondly, I haven't met ANYONE here whom i have ANYTHING in common with. Sure I have my classmates from school and maybe at some point in my life we were good friends but now, we have NOTHING in common. And it happens, most of my former "best friends" have left me because we started to have nothing in common. So we just drifted apart. Life is sooooo different over here, people have different views of things and I am so used to american life, with more open-mindedness that i feel left out here.

I miss my friends. I miss the freedom i had of just waking up and throwing some clothes on and getting on a bus and going wherever i pleased. I miss meeting new people and getting to know them and I can't do that here. No one has time here...between classes and work i never hear from anyone anymore. If there is one thing i hate, it's when people claim they miss you and then when you finally come, they see you once, twice and that's it. They take it for granted, it's like they forget you're gonna leave again and....i don't know where i'm going with this. I guess because it's hapened to me one to many times, i'm starting to get bored.

Well ok, onto a different topic, i was browsing through the internet and happened to come across this:

Tell me this isn't cute?

I found it on a gothic lolita website....WHY CAN'T I BE CUTE ENOUGH TO WEAR THAT? or rather why don't i lose enough weight and get cute and maybe have enough money to buy something like that....BTW Yuri they have this same one in Pink and it's hella cute too...their website is: marymagdalene.jp

Ok kids....talk to you later, just needed to vent...

Byebye