Wow, where does the time go?

Where does it go? I feel like it was just January. Ha, i guess i just don't realize it. Lately ive been thinking Wow, you think? STFU inner, no one asked you.  hey just saying. Its cause of you i have problems mostly. How is this my fault? Well lately ive been thinking, and while i can be a good friend i feel like i can be destructive at times. What? why would you say that? Seriously? I've tested every single relationship ive had because im so afraid of getting hurt. So instead i hurt first. I push and push and push until well...until whoever can tolerate my insane moods or either leave. You realize that its ok to a point...i mean i don't like bonds, well super close ones. I don't like them either *sigh* we're fucked aren't we? Self defense mechanism stupid. We're going to disappear one day you know. Go see the world...maybe live in taiwan hahahaha sounds awesome ne? Eh i guess...

So yes, i destroy most of my relationships. Im learning to fix it through communication. Still is a little hard for me to do but i think that if there are relationships worth working for then do everything you can to be a better person.

Yes, yes....better person i must be so i can feel fulfilled.